Nothing's better.

So in my last post i said when school starts everything will be better. it kind of has. but not really. i've only made three friends. but it's only been a week. the girls at my school are extremely uninteresting and set in the cliques to an extent that if you laugh at what they're saying, and you're not in their clique they'll look at you like you did something wrong. all my friends are the new kids. the clique girls are the classical prep type with a rich dad and straight hair, pinned back. there's like one original one amongst them all, but she's kind of rude. she asks me things like "Are those really butterflies?" or "Does your bracelet really say rape?" I mean how do you respond to that? "No, those are colorful puppies on my notebook, not butterflies." "Rape?! WHAT?! NO!" No. Of course i had to say yeah and she acted like she was higher than me by snickering to herself and then widening her eyes about the rape bracelet. All my old friends rarely talk to me. I hardly ever have to charge my phone, but i still do just to do it. so far Lily has forgetten about me. but that's all. so i guess it's not that bad. even though she was one of my best friends. I think i'll write more on The Nice Way to be Mean.I feel a little down. and that's when the most drama comes out of me :D

Well.

This blog was a fail. Polyvore got the best of me. So has facebook and myspace. and my stupid phone. i apologize blogger. i never started a summer plan. and i think that's why my summer went by so quickly. i plan things. a lot of things. i already know what i'm doing when i'm older. the college i'm going to. even the classes i'm taking next semester. and i love that. it's just getting there that i hate. i know kids sound stupid when they say they want to grow up, but i seriously do. i'm pathetic. right now i have no friends. and school starts in six days. is it bad to have a countdown on your vanity mirror? well if it is, i apologize. i want school to start soooo badly. and i want my dance classes to start so badly, as well. "The Nice Way to be Mean" was a fail as well. Kudos for rhyming? I want to end something, successfully. And i want to begin something surprisingly. all i do is want these days. It's annoying to myself, but it's true. I want my cat. my friends. i want kansas back. i want all these new people to go away. i want to stop feeling sorry for myself. i want to finish my stupid song on the piano perfectly, for once. i want to follow through on my high school plan, even though it's not much of a plan.

i'm deleting my facebnook on the 14th of august. i figured with school and all it would be too much of a distraction. i might stop writing, too. unless it's a class or something. august 14th. 25 days to go. yaaaaaaaaay.

JEEEEZE.

Okay, so i haven't blogged in forever! Oh well. I really don't care about this anymore. I guess i'll just say the most important things that happened so far. My hair is faded. Badly. Annnd I went to my gramma's house. YAAAAAAAAAAY! Peace.

PURPLE

YAYAYAYAYAY! So it was monday that I first dyed my hair. It was just my bangs. You really couldn't even tell I put it in. Then the next day we went out to eat and we were talking about getting bleach for the purple to stand out even better. So we went to Wal-Martfor bleach. There was none. Out of alllll the things Wal-Mart DOES have, it didn't have hair bleach. Really? Anyways, then we went back home- I was highly dissapointed- and Jordan and I really wanted to do it that night. So we went out to Target to see if they had some. Well luckily there was a Sally's Beauty Supply store right next door. So instead we went into Sally's. We were extremely lucky that we got there on time. They closed at 9:00 p.m. We got there at 8:55 p.m. So we went in and we got more purple dye. Then we looked for bleach. We found it, but we didn't know what to mix it with. We asked the lady what we had to mix it with, and it was litterally two feet away from the powder stuff. So we found all the stuff we needed, checked out, and as soon as we got home- dyed the bottom layer of Jordan's hair. Purple. I don't know if I said that wrong; I dyed Jordan's hair. And I looked pretty amazing while I was doing so. I had on those black gloves that people that do peircings wear. It was funny. Then after the dye was "frothy" she switched positions and started bleaching my hair. Honestly we only left it in for 15 minutes. But that was enough. When I washed my hair out in the shower, the feeling of my hair was a lot different than I thought it would be. It felt like a a lot of conditioner pouring out of my hair. It felt amazing! Jordan said when she bleached her sister's hair it felt like straw. Mine felt like a newly cut hair dew! Anywaaaays, after that we started dying it purple. The instructions say not to get in on the scapl... We should've done that. After I washed the dye out and dried it, it was close to 1:00 a.m. So I went to bed. Anna and Caitlin were over. We ended up falling asleep to the Phantom of the Opera. I really like that movie. It's pretty cool. Then in the morning I straightened my hair and I also realized that the purple didn't go EVERYWHERE in my hair. So since we still have dye left over we dyed my hair purple a second time, this time leaving out the bangs, and just doing the back. Then I left it in for 30 minutes. Then we rinsed and we realized the bangs still had a little light blond in them. Oh well! We couldn't do anything about it, so I now have to get use to it. I love the purple though. My whoooole head it Manic Panic's Ultra Violet. & I lovelovelove it.

Apologies and Philosophies.

Soooo, I did it again! Oh well. I think that's how it's going to go now. Every other day I'll post a new bloggity. Anyways, last night was fun. I went over to Anna's and I brought over my purple Manic Panic hair dye. We didn't want to go overboard, so we simply dyed to under part of my bangs and my side bangs. You really can't tell I even have it in there because of the bangs on top are so thick. Tomorrow, however, I'll be dying alllllll of it purple. I hope it looks awesome. I really like the bangs, and when I put it up in one of those Snookie poof things, you can really tell it's in there :D <----- That's the first smiley face I've done in all y blogging days so far. It's been killing me! I've done a lot of things for a first today. I dyed my bangs, did a smiley face, and right now I'm drinking Dr. Pepper which is my first soda iiiiiiin.... Almost a month. I love drinking water that's why it's been so long. I haven't been saying "I love you" to anyone lately. My sister got mad at me for it. She thinks I don't love her because I never tell it to her. I just don't like saying the phrase. Up until three months ago, I didn't even believe in love. When I told my mom she thought I was atheist or something because God is Love. I understand that, but I dunno. I just thought that this society uses that word to the greatest extent in which the phrase, "I love you", doesn't even matter anymore. It's like love just didn't exist. Then I thought it over... I kind of sounded really stupid when I told it to myself. I came up with a new philosophy when I came to my senses. It's not that love doesn't exist, it's just that it will never last forever. And I really do believe that.

Oh My Goodness

So I haven't blogged in two days. The past two days were crazy, but they were probably the best days this summer. So on the 2nd my friends, Anna and Caitlin, came back from New Mexico. They invited about ten people over to their house. They're sisters, by the way. They have a pool, so of course we had to swim. Then we fixed our hair, did our make up, and then took pictures. I hung out mostly with this girl named Morgan. She's really cool. I love how awkward moments bring people together. That's pretty much how Morgan and I started talking. We were in the pool and we were kind of the two loners because we both didn't know anyone there. I knew Whitney and Aimee, but they weren't hanging out with me. So we started talking about volleyball and polyvore and all this other stuff. It was cool. After we went inside and we did our hair, we started taking pictures. We talked about everything pretty much. Whitney had extensions. Those were fun to play with. Anna put them in her hair; they were black, Anna's hair is blond. It didn't look really good. It was actually kind of odd looking. Then we took more pictures and eventually went into the living room. The whole couch was taken up. And that means a lot because Anna's couch is huuuuge. I hate sleeping on floors, and the ottoman was pretty big, so I laid down on that. We watched three movies and before we knew it, it was 7:40 in the morning and pretty much everyone was still awake. Except for three people. Anyways, then the phone rang and it was my step mom. Caitlin answered it. Mary wanted Lauran and me to come home to watch our dogs. Normally that wasn't a problem, but my dog Taz got hot spots and we had to make sure he didn't chew himself even more. When we were walking home I told myself I shouldn't even go to bed, but when I walked in to the door it was freezing cold. When it's cold it almost multiplies my sleepiness. My bed was nice and cold; I loved it. I went to bed right away, and slept til 2:15. Then my brother woke me up and told me he was going to Georgia Perimeter Mall. It sounded cool, so I got up, took a shower, and left for the mall with Nathan at 3:00 I think. We ended up hitting traffic and got there at 4:30. The reason we were going there was for Nathan's Apple Store appointment, his iPhone broke or something. We walked around for a while and got lost in Macy's and also pretzel sticks and strawberry lemonade. It was good. We also went into Lush. After Nathan's appointment, which took an hour, we went back to Lush and bought bath bombs for Jordan. They were cool. When you dip them in water and then take them out, it looks like acid. It's awesome. So yeah. That's why I didn't have time to blog. Oh yeah, we also went to Chick-fil-a on our way home. It was delicious. As always.